Im pretty relaxed right now as I normally am on a sunday. I dont have any work to do or anything to do but its cool. Thats kinda how I like a sunday to be. Its nearly noon and all I have done today is read some and make tea. I just posed an old blog post I though I had put up on the 19th but didnt so thats why thats there.
My crush is prolly straight. I think I said that I troll his formspring like crazy and though that I have kinda been able to test the waters in true creeper fashion. I dont call it stalking if its only over formspring. Any reporter or detective would call it a stage in an investigation. So yea thats that I guess. Hes prolly just nice and what ever I perceived as him liking me was prolly just his niceness and that weirdness he has that allows him to get away with anything. The way I see it is that if he cant be my boyfriend I will still make him my friend! DETERMINATION!
So you all know im sub par as far as emotional integrity goes, but there is not a heck of a lot that can be done about that. Im doing what I can, believe me there, Its just not an easy thing to tackle and take down in one day. Its been a long struggle and will continue to be but there is always an end to this kind of thing. I would have not told the blogosphere about it but I needed to tell someone.
Im not crazy and gunna run off and kill my self. I try to focus on moments that are good and enjoy the feeling while I have it. I try to be in situations where I can be as happy as I can be so im not suffering. Its impossible to escape sometimes though. Its hard to explain but it just comes sometimes and I will be really sad all of the sudden. I try not to let it show or have it ruin my life but it gets to me regardless. Like I said Im doing what I can and blogging helps.
So California state testing is over, APs are over, whats next? Well...my whap teacher told us we "will have two projects assigned to us both will be done in groups. They will be done over the next four weeks and will be very difficult." He gets that way when hes having a trying day. They cant be that hard so im not worried, it was just funny how he worded it all.
To be honest I dont have a heck of a lot more to say.
Blog at you later