Okay, back to being 16 again. Eh. so practice on monday, we took on a few new solid players. I was hoping I would get bumped back up to my winger position but coach insists I stay a d-man. Oh well. We have 2 games between now and sunday, should I say when they are? idk. I feel like this season is moving very slowly for some reason. It should pick up soon. Why Is it in spring? I think its so people who play in the proper leagues can play for their HS teams as well. I want to play for one of those next year.
My brothers in the kitchen bull shitting to my mum and its pissing me off.
In english we are reading a Separate Peace. Finny and Gene, what a cute couple they would be if Gene didnt keep trying to KILL Finny!
There are a whole bunch of flamboyantly gay people at my school. They seem to think that to be gay you need to act the way they do and know everything about theater arts. Like, If I went up to them and came out they wouldn't believe me. They would prolly be grossed out first off but then they would be all. Oh you cant be gay you dont have Streissand on your ipod!
I try not to think of them as a dark mark on the gay community but its so hard cuz they would think of me as a black mark just the same. Its weird to think that you may be hated by your "own kind" if you will. I dont understand why there are flamboyant gay people and then masculine gay people. I didnt chose to be gay but did they chose to be femmy? Do you chose to act femmy? I dont really chose to act masculine I just do...I guess. If you chose to act femmy is it as an identity thing? Does it help you identify, feel happy? If it makes you feel happy more power to you, I have nothing against it I just want to know.
Spring break is coming. I will be visiting colleges WOOOT. Me and my occasional bouts of over achieving. I love it because I feel safe for the long run but kinda hate it too. Smart people (aside from the decent few) all think im some type of goofy jock idiot. Then the sportive people think im some type of nerdy weirdo. Is there any happy medium I will ever find? Probly...It will take some time im sure.
So much stuff going though my head tonight.
So ass put some bad comments on Mikeys blog that pissed me off. Im sure hes just some lonely weirdo but it still bothered me.
I feel like if I continue I will just go on bumbling about nothing so I will finish up.
All n' all today was a pretty good day. Looking forward to our first few real games. Todays pic is of Doug Gilmour. Its for Madeleine. #93 (my birth year). I have his Canadiens jersey but I out grew it. the other day it was Wendel Clark (a favorite) #17...my number. I picked it haphazardly when I started playing and it just stuck and I have grown into it as MY number. Its my lucky number and it appears often in my life. I love it.
Alright so much for finishing up.